Perfect Grace video!

Here is a video I uploaded of one of my absolute favorites that my wonderful husband quartet sings. Please listen and enjoy!

Lisa has another great one

This time it is the great Beth Moore!!!!

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A great NERD girl giveaway!

Another great one from Lisa at The Preacher's Wife. HERE is the link. You can enter it, but I am praying to win, so you can also help me pray, lol.

Wonderful Giveaway!!!

The Preacher's Wife has a great giveaway! Sign up HERE!!!!

While you are there, read around a bit! Lisa has some great stuff!

They are missing out?

We recently changed churches. We love our new church, but there is a larger youth group. I guess that is a good thing, but the kids are "pressuring" my kids to go to public school. They keep telling them everything they are missing out on. Aaron, 13, and Holly, almost 12, keep mentioning school, like maybe they are interested. Now, not trying to brag, but I have great kids. They have wonderful manners, they are courteous of others, and I feel they still have an innocence about them. So, what are they missing? They are missing drugs, they are missing pressure to wear inappropriate clothing, they are missing seeing class mates pregnant, they are missing fool language at the table, etc. What they are not missing is, their manners, their ability to relate to others, their compassion, their God in their everyday life, an education that is not interrupted by class mates (well, not usually, lol), time at home, time in the Word, peer pressure, and this list can go on. I know the kids are missing out on the "typical" childhood experiences, Praise The Lord! I am so thankful that I have the opportunity and the ability to be able to do this. We could be so much more financially stable if I was working, but I would rather be broke, pinch pennies, and force my kids to miss out!

Self revelation.......

or something like that. I have been in an emotional mess for a few weeks now. I wasn't necessarily blaming it on my husband, but I felt like our battles were due to things he is going through. I have been doing a lot of praying for him, and for myself. But praying to be a more supportive wife, and that type thing. Well, the other night we were having a conversation/argument over our problems. I was listening, but not listening if that makes sense. He kept saying that there was no love there, not husband and wife love, but mutual friendship and respect (sometimes) love. I kept saying he was wrong, that I do this this and this because I love him, he said no, I do it because I want things to be smooth between us and him not be mad. I even went as far to ask him what difference it made. He said because he wanted me to do all those things out of love. I got it, but I was thinking he was not completely right.

The next morning, I was really thinking about it and it hit me. I do everything in my life to make people happy and keep them from being upset. That isn't right, I should do it because I love them. Growing up, I had a need to always please my mother, so I did what I could to keep her from being "disappointed" in me. As a grown up, my mom still controls my emotions and I am still trying to keep her from being mad. Well, Michael has a very strong personality, and I have transferred that feeling I had growing up to our marriage. I keep the house clean, the clothes washed, supper cooked, etc so he doesn't get upset it isn't done. And it shows in my attitude/actions that I am dong it for the wrong reasons.

Now for the hard part, I have to figure out how to completely change my thinking into doing it for the right reasons. I know I love Michael, he doesn't think so because he sees "duty" in everything I do. But it is so overwhelming to think about how to change so he can see that I love him. I know this is something I completely have to work out with Jesus and myself. But it is scary to think that I am destroying the possibility of a good marriage because I am stuck in a cycle of "trying to make others happy".

Right now tho, everything is good. We are both trying to pay more attention to each other, and I feel God's peace in our marriage. I know God wants us to make it, so I am trusting Him to help us through this.

Book Giveaway!

I just signed up for a great book giveaway! Here. The book, His Loving Law, Our Lasting Legacy: Living the Ten Commandments and Giving Them to Our Children, by Jani Ortlund, sounds awesome!

14 years!!!

Today is mine and my husband's 14 year annivesary! Wow, it has been quite an eventful 14 years. But I wouldn't trade it. Not even the bad times. And there are a whole more good times. We have had 4 kids, we have moved a bunch, we have grown up, together. The Lord has done a lot of work in our lives the last 14 years also. Myself, and my 3 oldest kids have recieved salvation. That is miraculous. It was my husabnd who intorduced me to the true gospel of Christ. For that alone, he is the best thing that happened to me. I can't wait to see what the next 14 years has in store. I truly believe the Lord has a mighty work for us! I thank God daily for the wonderful man he gave me.