AAAAAAhhhhhh! (That is me screaming!)

I swear, for me to be a grown up, I have extreme responsibility issues. Oh, I do the important things, the kids are taken care of. But I am always forgetting appointments and what not. Well, I just got bit in the bootie on that one. I had an appointment to get sealants put on my kids teeth. I evidently missed 2 appointments, so they are refusing to reschedule me. I about started crying. Partly because I had messed up, and then partly because the women was not being nice about it. (I actually did get that shaky voice) Then, I call to find out when my husband's Dr was going to be in, she only is there a couple days a week........she has changed her schedule and I missed the late day. (today) But, if I had called last week, I would know these things and we would not have missed it. I feel like I am my own worst enemy so much of the time. I cause so many of my problems through irresponsibility. I can't change those instances right now, but I am still all stressed out about it. I have got to learn to do things when they need to get done, and then this wouldn't happen.

I am always harping on the kids to do certain things, I don't do have of them myself. What kind of example am I being. Do as I say, not as I do.......that isn't the mom I want to be. So, I guess I have a lot of "learning" to do myself. But it is so overwhelming when I think of all my areas that need improvement. So, I shall sit and ponder what needs the most work, and try for an improvement. I can do it, it might be slow moving (I am a procrastinator) but I will get it changed.